30th Dec 2012

The past 3 days was terrible. Food poisoning on Thursday night. I had went to bed by around 11pm, and was trying to sleep... Couldn't sleep, was in pain. And the pain got worse and worse... And I started having chills, and was shivering. Something was up. I tot I maybe caught something. Then came the diarrhea. And for the entire night, I was in extreme pain, shivering from the chills, and having diarrhea. It was so painful, I contemplated calling for an ambulance. But did not, though I wished I had. Would probably had suffered alot lesser if I had -_- Sometimes I have no idea what I'm thinking -.-

The whole night I was drifting in and out of consciousnesses, kept mostly awake by the pain, and knocking out due to sheer exhaustion... until morning, around 11am. The pain begin to lessen by a lot. Wanted to go see the doc, but couldn't stay awake... Knocked out until 3pm.. And make my way to the clinic finally. When the doctor examined me, my stomach was full of gas. Wherever he pressed, it hurts like hell >_< He gave me an injection, and medication, and 2 days MC. Was told to go back if I start vomiting or starts having a fever. 

Could barely eat or drink without feeling nauseated. Was alot better the next day, think the meds kicked in somehow. Just that I'm still not feeling hungry as often as I did... and I'm eating alot lesser than I did... Seems that after food poisoning, body goes into shock, so it will take awhile to recover. 

Though I'm really pissed at this sudden onset of food poisoning... A thought occurred to me. I think its a sign : To rest more. Been going out way too much. Need to stay home and rest more. 

Hopefully will get well enough to eat normally by 2013, this episode is not following me to 2013 -_-

Hopefully will be well enough for Yoga next week... Missed my session last Sat.... 

Pondering my resolutions for my Happiness Projects... Guess might be looking to add and drop a few. Some are almost impossible. 

In any case, managed do some more things, like changing the battery on my watch. That's one nagging task tackled. Now that I have a watch to wear again, so not used to it. Hmm. Maybe its a sign that I do not need a watch? lol...

Cleared quite a fair bit of backlogs on my photos from 2011. Namely the photos from my Europe trip. That's definitely part of tackling a nagging task, and also organize. Actually, organizing the stuff in your computer hard disk is waaaaayyyy more tedious than trying to toss out physical stuff. To me, that is. >_<

I need to spend more time to get to know my new cameras. Both newly bought this yr. Took me quite a while to be familiar with my D90. This is going to take some time, And I have only 2 mths. 

Revised resolutions as follow, trying to make it more specific if possible, makes it easier to follow : 

1. Go to sleep by 11.30pm if it's a workday. 10pm if it's an offday.
2. Exercise better. Yoga on all offdays. Gym x1/week
3. Toss, restore, organize
4. Tackle a nagging task
5. Meditate
6. Take my eyes off the computer for at least 5 min after every 1 hour of usage. 
7. Every week, keep one day for yourself. Do something you like, by yourself.
8. Eat at least 3 meals a day, at normal timings. Stop skipping meals.
9. Drink more water.
10. Passion : Spend time to learn how to use your cameras. A photo a week from your new cameras. No processing. 
11. Money : Build up a REIT watchlist. 

25th Dec 2012

It's Xmas~ Merry Xmas ~

Spent my Xmas eve with my gal frens. Had the Xmas eve buffet lunch at Triple 3, its pretty nice ^^ After that, we shopped, then dinner and movies. Watched The Hobbit. I haven had time for movie the whole month... Maybe even longer. Haha. 

Attended a REIT investment course recently. Going to start doing my own list of REIT selection soon. Tackling my finances is also part of my Happiness Project as well. 

Bought my OMD finally, with two lens. 12mm and 25mm :D And this one corresponds to "Passion" in my Happiness Project. I love photography. But I do not enjoy the endless hours spent to process them. The only way, is to get them right in camera. 

Been very very busy this month... Going out everyday, either for work or some other stuff. 

Today is the only day in a long time since I stayed home whole day. 

Followed up on my resolutions, tackled yet another nagging task : clearing up my desk. You have to see it to know how much of a task it was to clear it. Dumped 2-3 bags of stuff... Mostly mails. Finally, it looks quite tidy now :D 

Even found space for my essential oil burner. The room is now filled with the scent called "Deep Sleep". Think it will be good for putting me to a deep sleep tonite. I'm exhausted in any case. Clearing my desk took me the whole afternoon. 

Think I need to make some changes to my Happiness Project. Think Im more of a "set my resolutions at one shot" kind of person.. So... think I will set all my resolutions at one go, and apply them as soon as I can. 

Still offday tommorrow :D Will go for Yoga and then decide what to do with yet another free day :D

2012 is coming to an end. Time flies. Another 2 months, and I'm off to the trip of a lifetime :D (For me, that is)

Here's wishing 2013 will be a better year ^^

16th Dec 2012

Following up on my resolutions....

1. Went to bed pretty early yesterday. I'm targetting for 10pm bedtime on offdays, and 11pm on workdays. 
2. Im targetting to go Yoga lessons at least 3 times a week. And going to try to fit in swimming or gym. Hmm.
3. Clear out my closet yesterday ~ Strangely did not manage to toss as much as I hope. Darn. Need to be more ruthless. Haha. Need to clear up my desk. And come up with a system to stop paper mails piling up all over my desk T_T
4. I need to clear out my wallet. Been bugging me forever. Replace the battery on my watch. Gone watchless for months.. because I was too lazy to replace the battery -_-" Gee. 
5. Meditate. Still thking where to slot this in.
6. More or less manage to take my eyes off the computer quite regularly ^^
7. Yet to test out going off the grid yet. Need to pick one day next week. Should be Sunday, after my morning course. 
8. Had my 3 meals at normal times :D
9. I think Im drinking enough water. Hmm.

15th Dec 2012

It's only 3pm on a Saturday, and I'm done with most of the things I wanted to do today. 

Started with Yoga class. Today, headed for a non hot Yin Yoga class. First time trying this class, enjoyed it. It's the way Yoga should be... Mindful and relaxing. Hot yoga can be abit too much at times. I think I will be looking at non hot yoga classes after my current package with Hom Yoga ends. Interesting week, tried both Hot Flow and Yin Yoga class, both for the first time ^^

Did my necessities shopping, borrowed some books, collected my registered parcel... 

It dawned on me that for a long time now, I barely had time to read a novel. Having time to read a novel is becoming a luxury to me these days. It will be one of my resolutions to take the time to read a novel. Read because I enjoy it. Not because I had to. 

And because I'm feeling restless, I thought I should start my Happiness Project now. Today. I know it would make more sense to start on 1st Jan 2013. But considering that I'm going to be on a 26days trip from Feb to Mar, I think I should probably start now. After all, the earlier I start, the better? ^^

Also, since Im dedicating my first item to "Boost Energy", figured that it would be wonderful to start 2013 on a more energetic note. 

Referencing from "The Happiness Project", here are my 12 commandments. (Came up with them before I went to bed last night. Had to. My mind wouldn't let me rest until they are all written down.)

1. Act the way you want to feel
2. What do I really, really, really want? Go for it.
3. Get a grip on yourself. One bad thing is not a bad day. Or a bad life. (Or bug's life as I normally call it)
4. If you can't get out of it, get into it. 
5. Love life, and life will love you back.
6. Love yourself. The longest relationship you will ever have is with yourself.
7. When one loves, one does not calculate.
8. Stop the venting and complaining.
9. Never bother with the people you hate
10. Identify the problem
11. Give thanks for everything. Be thankful. 
12. Be loving and love will find you.

Focusing on a different subject each month. My list of subjects for each month is not complete yet. I know I will be including stuff like : Passion, Work, Love, Money, attitude, mindfulness. But still deciding what to add on to the list to finalize it. 

Starting Dec with "Boost energy and be healthier", the basic ingredient for this project. Basically a few resolutions for boosting energy, and be healthier. Both physically and emotionally.

How this project works, is by adding new resolutions every month, based what the next area I want to work on.

So here goes. Resolutions for Dec. 

1. Go to sleep earlier. Get sufficient sleep.
2. Exercise better. 
3. Toss, restore, organize
4. Tackle a nagging task
5. Meditate
6. Take my eyes off the computer for at least 5 min after every 1 hour of usage. 
7. Every week, keep one day for yourself. Go off the grid. Note that there are various definitions for going off the grid. In this case, I'm referring to going offline. No computer. No data connection when using mobile. No Facebook xD
8. Eat at least 3 meals a day, at normal timings. Stop skipping meals.
9. Drink more water.

13rd Dec 2012

Headed for another new cafe yesterday before my afternoon yoga class. Selfish Gene Cafe. Love it! 
Spacious, and not crowded. Well, maybe it was because I was there on a weekday morning :P. The food was great. Loved the carrot cake I ordered. The matcha latte was great too. Not sweet at all :) One of the cafes that I will be going back to again ;)

My late breakfast ;)

The interior of the cafe

Planned to head to at least 1 new cafe every week... 

I loved this paragraph from the book I'm reading now

"Accepting my true likes and dislikes bring me a kind of sadness. It makes me sad for two reasons. First, It makes me sad to realize my limitations. The world offers so much! - so much beauty, so much fun, and I am unable to appreciate most of it. But it also makes me sad because, in many ways, I wish I were different. " - The Happiness Project

I can kinda relate to it. I have seriously never enjoyed clubbing. I could never dance. I could never enjoy drinking much. Probably due to the fact that it doesn't take a lot to knock me out -_-" And I'm pretty sure nobody enjoys throwing up or the hangover feeling.. haha. Late nights are not really a thing I enjoy anymore.. Prefers to turn in early, and start the day early instead.

Everyone have things they enjoy doing, or do not enjoy doing. I enjoy travelling, photography, reading, just spending quiet time in a non crowded cafe. I really dislike crowds. 

It's all about being true to ourselves... But the things that we do not enjoy doing, are also our limitations in life. And with the world being able to offer so much... sometimes.. just sometimes.. I wonder if I'm missing out on life. And yes, sometimes I wished I'm different. 

11st Dec 2012

Long day... I made it a point to set my alarm for a late timing, so as to check what is the length of sleep I require at nite. I woke up around 8.30am this morning, so I would say around 8hrs or so.. So, for everyday that I work, Im deprived of one hour of sleep. That's alot of sleep debt to pay... 

Went for afternoon yoga, though I could have made it for 10.30 class... Decided to process some photos instead of heading for early class. Ended up going for the hot flow class at Raffles Place. This is my first hot flow class. The poses really very challenging, compared to hot hatha or hot hom -.- Really can die -.- Decided to stick to hot hatha and hot hom for now... 

Doing alot of reading recently.. In addition to the two books I bought on Sat.. There are also the random books I read in Kino. 

Alot of thoughts are going through my mind these days. Very confusing.. messy... Think I need to sort them out. And decide what it is that I'm really looking for. 

Life should be simpler than this. It can't be this hard. I'm going to figure this out. 

10th Dec 2012

Once again, coming to the end of yet another year. Trying to think about what I've accomplished this year. Hmm. 

Started reading "The Happiness Project", chapter one today. It's about boosting energy. I love this paragraph


"Although people believe they like to have lots of choice, in fact, having too many choices can be discouraging. Instead of making people feel more satisfied, a wide range of options can paralyze them."
- The happiness project

This is true. It can get quite discouraging when you have too many options. So. The first thing to do is, get rid of useless options? Hmm. 

I think I need to do my own happiness project for 2013. Happiness should be a priority in life. If you do not take responsibility for your own happiness, no one else will. Your happiness should never be tagged to anything, or anyone for that matter ;) If its tagged to someone, something, you will bound to be disappointed at some point... 

Been very emo recently. Duno why. Some kind of mid life crisis. Too many thoughts going haywire in my mind. Not knowing what the hell I want out of life. Where am I going to be in 5yrs? 10yrs? 

I think I need to spend some time to ponder these before 2013. But if the world ends on 21 Dec 2012, then no need to think liao :P

8th Dec 2012 Saturday

Attended a wedding of a good fren today. It's hard to describe the feelings when u attend a wedding.. But its heartwarming.. And something else. I thk its the love in the air. Haha. 

Started reading alot more recently. Bought two books today. Started reading : The Happiness Project. I don't think Im depressed. But I dun thk Im as happy as I would like to be either. Its now the end of the year, maybe its time to embark on my own happiness project. 

Messy thoughts recently. Thinking about alot of things. Life. Work. Health. Love. Or the lack of it. Haha. 

Despite everything, I still believe in soulmate. I still believe there is someone out there for everyone. We just need to find each other... 

Watching Bridget Jones 's Diary.. again.. Been watching it alot recently. haha. How nice it would be if someone could tell you that he likes you, just the way you are :)