26th Feb 2015

Apparently, coffee is doing a gd job of keeping me awake this morning on my way home from work. Did not even have a headache or doze off on the bus. Despite being awake the whole night. Maybe coffee is my miracle drug ;)

When your brain is active, there is no way you could sleep even if you are really exhausted. Most days I wished I could just install a few switches.. And shutdown my brain like I shutdown my Pc...

Flip a switch, off to sleep I go. Flip a switch, turn off how I feel. Maybe a switch for instant happiness high... Lol. Luckily watching something funny works too ;)

While waiting for time to pass (while my hair mask is settling on my hair), decided to read Men are Mars, Women are from Venus. 

My thoughts on the matter? No matter how u read that book, these two are the opposites. They both want and need different things. Heck.. they don't even think in the same way. 

Men wants space. Women wants closeness. Given a choice, women probably want to spend time with their guy most of the time. But hey, just becos we are thking abt it, does not mean we are going to.  But it also doesnt mean we don't like that idea. Yea, I know, we are kinda complicated. 

If however a woman do not want to spend more time with you, for no good reason, the end is probably near. At least in dating context.. Be careful what you wish for...

Women are needy. But guess what? We hate being needy too, as much as men hate us being needy. The thing is, women generally have no problem with neediness, until they fall in a love. So...  can we blame it on the men then? Afterall, they bring out the neediness in us. Damn it. 

Women tend to overanalyse. Apparently, the brain functions when it comes to analysing what men says, are very advance on the Venusian models. We probably pick up on everything and anything.. Without even trying -.- 

Martian models? Most men have no idea what we are trying to say most of the time... Not sure to laugh or cry -_-" This would have been hilarious, had I not feel like strangling the guy when it happened.. Or strangling myself -_-

Most days, I have think that most women do know they can be unreasonable, but sometimes its just something we needed. No any other way about it. It's our DNA. 

I thk it probably means we gotta respect and acknowledge our differences and try to work with them. The differences between the two gender? They are not a decision or a choice. Its simply something that happens. 

These two are so different, yet they are attracted to the other. Maybe it's someone's idea of a joke... And now they are just watching us for entertainment... 

Its a surprise we are not all strangling the other out of sheer frustration... 

Perhaps the truly enlightened ones are the ones who decided to date the same gender... Do they have the same problems? Hmm. 

Strange thoughts. Maybe my brain is functioning at a different level after only 3 hrs of sleep. Maybe this is how enlightenment feels like. Let's hope I can shut it down properly tonite.

Sleep. I need sleep. 

Dear brain, please stop overclocking and shutdown properly tonite. I know you are rebelling becos u are upset. But hey, stop trying to kill me. Im all you have. Plus Im looking like a panda already.. but nowhere as cute -_-

10 Feb 2015

Since a while back... Ok a very long while back, I was wondering if I will ever meet that guy I'm looking for.

It's like Cupid's forgotten all about me. 

Nothing I could do about it, its not something you can "work hard" and get good results. 

Generally, the answers I got from frens who found their partners :

- You will know when it happens.
- If there is something that bugs you about tat person, he is not the one.
- You won't remember your list when it happen

Just as I decided, forget it. I'm focusing on other stuff instead. Finding that someone is simply not happening for me. 

That's when somehow, it happened. I actually found him.

I've been told that my guards are up, and I'm too cautious when it comes to dating.

I wonder.

Because, if that's the case, what the hell happened?

Totally no idea how the hell it happened. Only that it happened -_-"

Time passes so slow when Im not with him. Im always wishing for Friday and weekends to come even though they pretty much do not mean anything to me for the past 4 yrs or so. Zzzz

And now I wonder what would change for me. After being single for so long. I kinda love this me. She is independent, pretty rational and is happy. 

Looking back to the time when I was in a RS, it didn't go too well. Was it becos they were the wrong ones? Or was it me? 

I gotta admit, I've changed alot after so many yrs of being Single. But thats my Single Self. I wonder if my "when Im attached" self did change and grow up too. 

I haven't met her for a while, and we are pretty much strangers now. Time to get to know her a little better.