10 Feb 2015

Since a while back... Ok a very long while back, I was wondering if I will ever meet that guy I'm looking for.

It's like Cupid's forgotten all about me. 

Nothing I could do about it, its not something you can "work hard" and get good results. 

Generally, the answers I got from frens who found their partners :

- You will know when it happens.
- If there is something that bugs you about tat person, he is not the one.
- You won't remember your list when it happen

Just as I decided, forget it. I'm focusing on other stuff instead. Finding that someone is simply not happening for me. 

That's when somehow, it happened. I actually found him.

I've been told that my guards are up, and I'm too cautious when it comes to dating.

I wonder.

Because, if that's the case, what the hell happened?

Totally no idea how the hell it happened. Only that it happened -_-"

Time passes so slow when Im not with him. Im always wishing for Friday and weekends to come even though they pretty much do not mean anything to me for the past 4 yrs or so. Zzzz

And now I wonder what would change for me. After being single for so long. I kinda love this me. She is independent, pretty rational and is happy. 

Looking back to the time when I was in a RS, it didn't go too well. Was it becos they were the wrong ones? Or was it me? 

I gotta admit, I've changed alot after so many yrs of being Single. But thats my Single Self. I wonder if my "when Im attached" self did change and grow up too. 

I haven't met her for a while, and we are pretty much strangers now. Time to get to know her a little better.