26th Feb 2015

Apparently, coffee is doing a gd job of keeping me awake this morning on my way home from work. Did not even have a headache or doze off on the bus. Despite being awake the whole night. Maybe coffee is my miracle drug ;)

When your brain is active, there is no way you could sleep even if you are really exhausted. Most days I wished I could just install a few switches.. And shutdown my brain like I shutdown my Pc...

Flip a switch, off to sleep I go. Flip a switch, turn off how I feel. Maybe a switch for instant happiness high... Lol. Luckily watching something funny works too ;)

While waiting for time to pass (while my hair mask is settling on my hair), decided to read Men are Mars, Women are from Venus. 

My thoughts on the matter? No matter how u read that book, these two are the opposites. They both want and need different things. Heck.. they don't even think in the same way. 

Men wants space. Women wants closeness. Given a choice, women probably want to spend time with their guy most of the time. But hey, just becos we are thking abt it, does not mean we are going to.  But it also doesnt mean we don't like that idea. Yea, I know, we are kinda complicated. 

If however a woman do not want to spend more time with you, for no good reason, the end is probably near. At least in dating context.. Be careful what you wish for...

Women are needy. But guess what? We hate being needy too, as much as men hate us being needy. The thing is, women generally have no problem with neediness, until they fall in a love. So...  can we blame it on the men then? Afterall, they bring out the neediness in us. Damn it. 

Women tend to overanalyse. Apparently, the brain functions when it comes to analysing what men says, are very advance on the Venusian models. We probably pick up on everything and anything.. Without even trying -.- 

Martian models? Most men have no idea what we are trying to say most of the time... Not sure to laugh or cry -_-" This would have been hilarious, had I not feel like strangling the guy when it happened.. Or strangling myself -_-

Most days, I have think that most women do know they can be unreasonable, but sometimes its just something we needed. No any other way about it. It's our DNA. 

I thk it probably means we gotta respect and acknowledge our differences and try to work with them. The differences between the two gender? They are not a decision or a choice. Its simply something that happens. 

These two are so different, yet they are attracted to the other. Maybe it's someone's idea of a joke... And now they are just watching us for entertainment... 

Its a surprise we are not all strangling the other out of sheer frustration... 

Perhaps the truly enlightened ones are the ones who decided to date the same gender... Do they have the same problems? Hmm. 

Strange thoughts. Maybe my brain is functioning at a different level after only 3 hrs of sleep. Maybe this is how enlightenment feels like. Let's hope I can shut it down properly tonite.

Sleep. I need sleep. 

Dear brain, please stop overclocking and shutdown properly tonite. I know you are rebelling becos u are upset. But hey, stop trying to kill me. Im all you have. Plus Im looking like a panda already.. but nowhere as cute -_-

10 Feb 2015

Since a while back... Ok a very long while back, I was wondering if I will ever meet that guy I'm looking for.

It's like Cupid's forgotten all about me. 

Nothing I could do about it, its not something you can "work hard" and get good results. 

Generally, the answers I got from frens who found their partners :

- You will know when it happens.
- If there is something that bugs you about tat person, he is not the one.
- You won't remember your list when it happen

Just as I decided, forget it. I'm focusing on other stuff instead. Finding that someone is simply not happening for me. 

That's when somehow, it happened. I actually found him.

I've been told that my guards are up, and I'm too cautious when it comes to dating.

I wonder.

Because, if that's the case, what the hell happened?

Totally no idea how the hell it happened. Only that it happened -_-"

Time passes so slow when Im not with him. Im always wishing for Friday and weekends to come even though they pretty much do not mean anything to me for the past 4 yrs or so. Zzzz

And now I wonder what would change for me. After being single for so long. I kinda love this me. She is independent, pretty rational and is happy. 

Looking back to the time when I was in a RS, it didn't go too well. Was it becos they were the wrong ones? Or was it me? 

I gotta admit, I've changed alot after so many yrs of being Single. But thats my Single Self. I wonder if my "when Im attached" self did change and grow up too. 

I haven't met her for a while, and we are pretty much strangers now. Time to get to know her a little better. 

7th Jan 2015

A new year, my focus is all on trading. One of my two main goals currently. 

Still alot to work on. There are good trades and there are stupid ones.. Gotta stop making stupid trades.. and learn to take profit at the right timing. Always miss out on my profits becos I did not take my profits earlier. 

Currently stuck to this new drama.. Alot of thoughts on this drama. There are 3 single ladies in this drama, all aged 31. One of them, she really live life to the max. She basically works for 6mths and then travel for the next 6mths with the money she makes. Really admire her passion for life. Maybe there's something I can learn from her ;)

Particularly loved this from the drama : 

"有人說青春像用一頂鮮嫩玫瑰
編織成的后冠，戴上它妳就能
收到赦免和優待

30之後妳覺得妳依舊是自己，
但身邊的人卻會用青春已逝，
年輕不再當武器，
逼妳走進名為婚姻的城堡，
告訴妳女大當嫁，
不結婚對不起整個世界，
只是城堡裡的生活就一定幸福美滿嗎?
童話故事只說到王子和公主
從此過著幸福快了的日子就不敢再說下去，
是不是因為作者比誰都清楚，
其實進入城堡裡的生活並不是那麼美好

有人為了該不該進去、怎麼進去而苦惱，
也有人根本不當回事依然我行我素自由自在，
站在城堡外的我看不見裡頭的生活，但嚮往著，
只是看見曾經進入城堡的朋友那麼辛苦、難過，
最後選擇離開，是不是不進去、不嚮往比較好，
到底從什麼時候開始，
30歲變成女人的枷鎖，30歲得這樣，
30歲必須那樣，也許不想要、不在乎，
這社會卻粗魯的敲醒妳、
催促妳必須這樣、那樣，
女人30歲後的人生怎麼樣才算合乎規格，
又要怎麼做才能昂然無懼的面對整個世界?"

Alot of thoughts on this paragraph. It appears that other than mid life crisis that everyone go thru, women also have to go thru the 30yrs old crisis exclusive to them. So not fair... Ah well... :/

Other than trading and drama, been doing alot of travel research recently :

- I thk Taipei and Seoul would be my ideal cities to live in. As much as I love Japan and Hongkong as well, the cost of living is higher over there. Price of house rental in Hongkong is pretty crazy when u compare it to Taipei.. 

- Price of short term rentals in Taipei is pretty affordable. 

- Most ppl do Visa runs from Taipei via Hongkong. Visa runs for Korea, usually u do it from Japan. Sounds like fun :D Hope to do it soon ;)

31st Dec 2014

It's the last day of the year. Random thoughts going through my mind.

“Since life is short and the world is wide, the sooner you start exploring it, the better.”

Perhaps everyone needs to take a long trip at a certain point in time to do a reset on this life.

The realisation that I've been going on only one trip a year since 2012. Yet my photos are still backlogged by 3 yrs :/

2015 will be different though, intending to do more than 2 trips ;) First trip, Taiwan in Jan! And already pondering the next in Mar/April ;)

Truth is, a job / career is pretty much like trading. As it is with everything else in life. Cut your losses early. Don't hold a losing trade for 10yrs. It's not worth it.

Life is really short. Don't waste it doing things you hate.

It hit me that I really enjoy being single. For too many reasons. Definitely more pros than cons actually. Damn.

I could probably stay in a city for a month, just cafe hopping / food hunting. I thk I'm addicted to this lifestyle.

Everything happens for a reason, even if you don't know it at that point.

Things are usually not as bad as you think.

The realisation that I've been afraid of too many things in this life. Maybe its time to test those boundaries.

11st Dec 2014

Itinerary and hotel booking is finally completed today. Initial planning was to head to Penghu for 3 days 2 nights. But after I completed my planning, I realised it cannot be done. The worst time possible to go Penghu is winter, and Jan is probably the worst. Super windy. There goes my Twin Hearts Weir :( Until next time.. 

I realised that I've almost always booked my Tw trip very last min. Could still recall my first trip to Taiwan, which was done so last min, that I almost couldn't find myself a room to stay in Taipei.. Ended up booking the more expensive rooms instead.. Lol... 

The 2nd trip to Tw in 2011 seemed to be pretty last min as well.. Back then, I wasnt sure where I wanted to go, and in the end, Cathay promotion tempted me to book a trip to Taiwan. 

Anyway... Will be spending all 9 days in Taipei this trip :D Looks like the cafe culture is blooming nicely in Taipei as well. Let's see how it measures up to Seoul and Singapore. I guess all that's left next is to head for Tokyo, HongKong, Bangkok to check out the cafes there as well! :D 

Meanwhile, been doing alot of cafe hopping in Singapore recently as well. Not just cafe hopping actually, been going places to try out new food. Despite that, Im still doing 80% Paleo, while indulging the other 20% of my meals. 

I realised that sweet stuff really do not agree with me. Gluten and non gluten grains seem fine in moderate amounts. Not sure about milk. But sugar is definitely killing me. Have to try to stick to the savoury stuff when cafe hopping I supposed. As much as possible anyway. 

Other than cafe hopping, doing alot more reading. I enjoy being the one reading and not using a phone while commuting ;)

Keeping up with my Paleo lifestyle. 

Trying to establish a bedtime routine / wakeup routine. Not very successful at that though. I wish I could be that gal who wakes up at 7am feeling refreshed and gets her workout done. But unfortunately, Im that gal who snoozes her way through all her alarms from 7am until.. the time where she absoulutely had to wake up -_-" 

Still alot of thoughts running through my mind at any given time. I guess I need more time to sort them out into more manageable pieces. 

In any case, out of the 3 things Im supposed to focus on, top one is managing my trades. Not doing so well. I must be missing something. Zzzz

The other two, 1 is already pretty focused. The other one, Im not sure if focusing on it will help. I should probably just let it be and focus on just two goals.... Might increase my odds. 

6th Dec 2014

I was pondering about doing a technology sabbatical, and so I scheduled it in for today. Saturday to me, is a day of rest. Unless its a group gathering where it has to be on a weekend to accomodate everyone else, you must be mighty important / special to get me out on a Saturday. Definitely my last choice for a day out if I can help it.  

Anyway... the technology sabbatical kinda happened becos I decided to head out for lunch with only my wallet and keys. Just somewhere 5min from home, not too far. 

Not much feeling when I was busy attacking my food. I was famished. It was after 2pm. So definitely ate fast. 

But after Im done with my lunch and drinking my tea, I started to feel out of place. Under normal circumstances, I would be drinking my tea while distracting myself with my phone.. Not today. For some weird reason, it feels damn weird to be drinking my tea, and the other hand had nothing to do. It was like, I needed to be busy.

I tried people watching. Feels strangely weird too. Somehow, people watching doesnt feel this weird when I had my phone to distract me. 

Not knowing the time, did not help. It felt like alot of time had passed. But I thk I was only there for like 20-30min -_-

Im not sure what to make out of this. But I thk I need to do this again. Maybe head out to a cafe without my phone and see what happens. Or maybe with a phone, but no data connection. And definitely wearing my watch. 

And yes, I know 20-30min is probably not much of a sabbatical, but it was a conscious decision to go without my phone and stuff, so it's counted :P

Busy planning my for my upcoming trip in Jan 2015 :D First trip of 2015 ~

Somehow, it was also something that just happened. 

Around 6pm yesterday evening, I was pondering if I could take leave for a holiday in Jan. Upon checking, I realised I could. So texted my boss to confirm if I could indeed take my leave. 

While waiting for his reply, I checked out the flights and noticed Scoot seems to be on sale. I checked a few date combinations for both flights and accomodations for a few of my shortlisted destinations. All available. By 7.30pm, I was booking my tickets and by 8pm, Im all set ;) 

The freedom of a solo traveller :P When to go, where to go, all up to you. Life doesn't get any better than this. Haha. 

Planning on another trip in Mar next year. Destination unknown. But it should be still Asia ;)

2014 is coming to an end soon. Looking back at this yr, its been pretty good. A yr where I did alot of thinking, pondering, and changes to my life. Some changes are deliberate, some not so. Nevertheless, changes will happen, regardless of whether we wish for it anot. The key is to just go with the flow ;)

Healthwise, its Whole 30 and going Paleo. This is a lifestyle change to stay. I started my anti-inflammation diet back in 2010, and kept at it almost all the way. I was mostly gluten free since last yr Oct. This yr, its Paleo diet and lifestyle. Not really a big jump for me, since my existing diet and lifestyle is more or less aligned to Paleo principles to begin with... 

Time management wise, trying to spend my life more productive. And stop killing time. I schedule most of the stuff I need to do, putting the most important things in the morning so Im less inclined to skip them. Important stuff like charting and exercise. Since my working days are not fixed, I usually plan my exercise accordingly on the days Im off. Seriously, its all about priority. Saying you have no time is usually an excuse. If its important, you will figure out where to slot it in. Haha. 

To succeed in getting what you want, you have to limit your goals or objective to just 3. And yes, I have decided what those 3 are. Was attempting to do too many things(becos was trying to be more productive). 

"Keep up to three lists for different parts of your life – say ‘work’, ‘home’ and ‘weekend’. Each list only gets one objective. If you absolutely must have more, just know that each addition quarters the odds of that area succeeding." - http://oliveremberton.com/2014/if-you-want-to-follow-your-dreams-you-have-to-say-no-to-all-the-alternatives/

This is truly a year of thoughts, alot of thoughts. Currently, the ones running through my mind : 
going green
reducing consumption
what the hell do I really want in this life?
how much money do I need to retire?
do I really wan to get married?
do I want to stay single?
do I really want to fall in love?
what if subsconciously I don't?
is money really so important?
can i survive with lesser money?
how can I travel around and work my way through?
is that really a life I want?

I think... this is call the mid life crisis -_-

Love life wise, single vs attached, there is no "better" status. There are pros and cons on both sides.. So get that "attached is better" idea out of ur head -_-" RS status should be a choice. Rather be single than be with the wrong person. Any day... 

Im pretty offended when thinks that its sad/ unhappy to travel alone -_-" 

Seriously? Any idea that there are many people in this world, who might not have the privilege to even travel? So can you at least appreciate the chance you have to travel and see the world? This chance denied to some people, simply becos they are born in the wrong place? Pls do focus on how lucky you are. Travelling is something happy. Be it solo or with other people. Appreciate it. 

28th Nov 2014 Friday

I overheard this conversation between a daughter and her mother today at SGH. The daughter was berating the mother for not listening to the doctor. 

The mother was an elderly, who is not keen to control her diet for the sake of her high cholestrol levels. The daughter was telling the mother to eat more vegetables, etc. Talking to her about inflammation in the body. The mother seem to be very stubborn, and was eating a snack. Something deep fried. 

Sounds like stuff I would advise my frens. Though from experience, it would mostly be one ear in, the other ear out -_- " The response I get is mostly the fact that its impossible. 

Huh? So Im doing the impossible? Yay :D

Ah well.. lifestyle choices are something very personal. Too personal. It would be hard to try to change anyone's mind abt how they are living / eating /etc. Not to mention, its probably none of my business. Need to stop commenting, even if I feel I should. Haha. 

And definitely wise to find a partner who is supportive of healthy eating. 

Been busy, busy, busy since Oct 1, which marked the start of my Whole 30. Intially, I tot W30 would be tough. But somehow, I breeze through it ^^ After that, I started tweaking my lifestyle to make it more aligned with Paleo. And surprisingly, this is tougher. 

W30 is straight forward. You simply eat accordingly for 30days. Simple enough. Paleo on a regular basis is tougher. Even if its 80/20 ratio of Paleo/non Paleo meals. Becos now you have to track your 20% non Paleo meals. 

And I've noticed a difference when I eat too much non Paleo stuff. I feel really tired and sluggish. Zzz. 

Currently, other than eating a 80/20 ratio of Paleo/non Paleo meals, exercising regularly, Im also trying to eliminate chemicals from my life. As much as possible. This is also an attempt to simplify my life and also to go green. 

Such lofty goals, I would never imagine myself thking along these lines 10yrs ago. Time indeed changes people. 

My haircare, skincare and bodycare are all going chemical free. Currently, still using a mix of my current storebought products + Natural products. Need to finish them up. Hope to do a total switch to all natural chemical free products soon. 

As a result of going W30 and Paleo, I ended up saving money becos Im mostly cooking at home. Meal prep can be tough, but I can actually say I love cooking :D Esp soups and desserts :9

Trying to sort out the other aspects of my life as well. 

Spring cleaned quite a few sections of my room in the past 2mths. But still messy. More spring cleaning to go. 

Trying to do trading, not doing so well. Need more practise. 

Pondering what the hell do I really want in this life. Whats the most important to me. Still pondering.